Saturday, July 21, 2012
One Sunday in church all were singing an old gospel song: "What can wash away my sin? Nothing but the blood of Jesus." Sitting right next to me was an unkempt, stinking man in tattered clothes. Folks name this pitiful type "skid row winos". He had dirty nails, with a smokers yellowed fingers, glassy eyes, and the wrinkles of aged abuse. He turned to me and spoke these slurring words "I know what you sing is right, nothing but the blood of Jesus can wash away my sins. But I used to be the president of the seminary, I know all about what Jesus can do. But you know, there is a BIG BIG difference between being WASHED WHITE and being whitewashed. ~ The old man with a tear in his eye staggared away while his wisdom soaked through my soul. God will use anyone, even a donkey to teach us profound lessons. This man had been WASHED WHITE, then with unconfessed sin, he told his truth, his choice. Folks that dress in whitewashed clothes, who sing praises, and attend church regularly, slip nothing past a God that knows every heart, and every motive. This man, a sad priest knows the way, but he chooses to live with his unconfessed sin...and he knows, that unconfessed sin remains unforgiven sin. Our human intelligence, wit and denial works over time to cover up sin, but Godly wisdom convicts and uncovers sin. Man whitewashes, and God WASHES our souls WHITE. The blood of Jesus purifies us, and He gives us His JOY in the midst of our sorrow as we admit our sins. Sorrow is one of life's greatest teachers, it leads us into a quiet place, and a deep reflection to face the times we missed the mark, and a Godly sorrow gives us cause to confess our need for a CHANGE, for His NEWNESS to flood our souls and cleanse us, once again. Human sorrow comes when we get caught and we ask a person for their forgiveness. Godly sorrow comes when we realize that our thoughts, actions, or reactions were NOT Christlike. CRACK my HARD stone HEART with the TRUTH of how my ways have offended Thee. Lord break my pride. Holy Spirit convict me and produce a Godly sorrow in me. Alive with Christ in me, Lord make me ANEW, show me what to confess that I may bring You glory not shame. Give me courage to admit my errors, to reveal what idols replace You on the throne of my heart. As my Holy Father hates pride, I confess that my ministry has become a pride filled idol. Holy Spirit I asked You to shine a light on any murmuring, and remind me of the WOE in me for any unkind scarcastic remark against a person or an authority in my life. So You arranged for a man to sit in front of me in church Sunday with this TSHIRT on. This pricked my heart with a reminder of a woman covered in tatoos to which I dismissed without mercy in the previous week. I realize each small sin separates me from a close fellowship with my Lord. I ask in the name of Jesus to be bathed, submerged and cleansed by the blood of Jesus. The word for the day is NEW ~ Make me NEW in YOU Lord, and I thank You that ONLY YOU are my judge, restore me with a FRESH start today.